Jenna's Christmas Trees and Memories

I took these pictures a few days ago to share on this blog of Grandma's Christmas tree for Jenna. She did such a beautiful job with my little brother.

 

I just love the pony ornament at the bottom! I went to Kohls (which have all ornaments 50% off by the way) and got us one for our tree. I absolutely love it. So that is our ornament this year for Jenna from her Daddy and me. What is really strange is that my mother also got the giraffe ornament. The doctor tells me she thinks this baby is a boy. I told my husband that if she's right I wanted to decorate in giraffes. Well my mom had no clue when she bought this ornament. When I look at these ornaments together I think of my Jenna and her brother together. Weird coincidence...

I also finished Jenna's tree in our home. At Kohl's I found a beautiful white dove ornament that reminds me of Jenna. At the grave site at her funeral they did something for her that I will always cherish. They played "Jesus Loves Me" and released about a dozen white doves. We got to pet one of them before the release.

I vividly remember that day. My milk was still coming in and I was in excruciating physical pain, but I didn't care. I also remember such a wonderful crowd of people that wanted to remember Jenna with us.

Two white roses that we laid on her casket... And my husband pulled out a picture of me from our wedding day and laid it on her casket with the roses. I don't even know why I am thinking about this. But someday I think I may forget. As bitter as these memories are, they are still a part of her. And for that I want to do everything to remember them.

Anyway... here is the tree that I decorated for my Jenna. I think she likes it :)

The angel at the top and the big bird were with her in the incubator. The teddy bear is something I received from MEND, I think. My Grandmother gave me the Willowtree angel on the left that says "Thank You". She said if Jenna could tell me one thing it would be "thank you" for what I did for her. I never thought of it that way before. The angel on the right is carrying a baby, which my sister-in-law gave me.

 

And made her stocking!!! :)

(Thanks Carrie, for helping!)

 

Maybe not this year, but sometime in the future I would like to get her name embroidered on it.

When I was decorating her tree, I went through some of her things to place around the tree. I suddenly had the urge to find her ultrasound pictures. I was in panick mode for about an hour but thank God I found them!