6.30.2010

unnatural

I miss telling people how she's doing. Nobody asks how Jenna's doing. Well, of course not. She's gone. It's silly, I know.

But I miss being able to share the latest news about her. I miss having something NEW to share about her.

Nobody asks me how she's doing because truth is I don't even know. I don't know if she's sleeping or smiling or playing or eating or crying (well I have to believe this is impossible in Heaven)...

It's so backwards. Unnatural.

I don't think I'll ever get used to this.

9 comments:

belle said...

(((hugs)))) makes perfect sense to me

Mother Knows Best Reviews said...

I am sending you hugs.

More than anything, you know that she is always loved - that is the one thing you always know. Prayers for you.

Maggie said...

I don't think anyone should ever have to get used to this... many hugs to you today. XO

Caroline said...

{{HUGS}}

Caroline

Courtney said...

*hugs*

I wish this wasn't true for us my friend. =(

Lisette said...

There is no way we will ever get used to that. I wish it wasn't so.

I always like to think that all our angel's are playing together hand in hand. I have believe they are better off. ((HUGS))

Anonymous said...

I just wish people would understand our need to talk about them as if they are a part of our everyday earthly lives.

I don't think we will ever get used to this.

caitsmom said...

Oh, this makes so much sense to me. I have no new stories about my baby and when moms get together, I'm sadly out of the loop. They don't want to hear that she lived and then died. Wish it were different. Peace.

Andrea said...

The non acknowledgement is one of the most difficult things to navigate and I don't think one ever gets used to it.

I'm currently persuing fertility treatment and it hurts when well meaners say "this is the road to your 1st baby, how exciting" Yes, is exciting to think of the possibility and be thankful for alternatives, but Christian will always be my 1st baby. As you say, it feels backwards.

Much love to you this week and thank you so much for your realism and honesty.

xxx

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