I miss her everyday
and thoughts go through my head I'd never dream of sharing
Behind the smile
I grieve her short life
and often wonder why
Behind the smile
I question
if a greater faith would have been formed if I had witnessed her healing?
Behind the smile
I hide
It is far safer than expressing openly just how bad I might be doing
Behind the smile
I wonder
What her heart must be feeling
Behind the smile
I wish
that my little girl were here too
Behind the smile
I can feel her
And wonder if she can feel me too
Behind the smile
I live
Or try to like everyday is my last
Behind the smile
I know
Just how blessed I am to have had those 13 days with her
Behind the smile
I cry
for the little girl I never got to know
Behind the smile
my tears are flowing
and it's only then that I realize my heart's still in a million pieces
Behind the smile
I want to retreat
to my time-though short-spent in the NICU with her
Behind the smile
I am broken
Knowing that this side of heaven, this is as good as it gets.
19 comments:
Beautiful Franchesca. (((Hugs)))
luv u sister, and i sit with u in silence....
that is beautiful~ perfectly written... i adore poetry, it just expresses our thoughts and feelings so honestly.
I have been MIA for awhile so I am trying to catch up. i adore the new blog look and colors! I think it is perfect for Miss Jenna =) (i am getting antsy with my blog too, i am almost ready for a change)
Hugs~ Lily
This is beautiful, I love it.
Wow that speaks 100's of words more than are written. Our lot defined so clearly. Love it!!
**tears** AS USUAL!!!!!! you have such a way with words...its incredible!!!!
What a beautiful expression Fran. Just beautiful.
Beautiful! Thank you for expressing what many of us often feel.
I could have written this Fran. It was lovely, and so true. So much is happening behind my smile...deep in my heart.
Very Beautiful.
Caroline
This is so beautiful. It is so touching, I love it. Jenna can feel your love. ((HUGS))
Perfectly said... xoxo
That is so, so perfectly written. Hugs.
Beautifully said! And with so much heart. :) (((HUGS)))
Absolutely precious. Thank you for sharing this.
Tears are flowing, as so much of this rings true in my own life...
Heather
Beautiful & soul wrenching.
Haven't visited for awhile. Your blog is beautiful, Franchesca...and so are your words in this poem. So heartfelt and true...it all does lie hidden behind the smile doesn't it?
Beautifully written ((hugs))
Beautifully written & a wonderful memorial to your daughter. I stumbled upon your blog after searching out those who have dealt with infant loss. My husband & I just lost our daughter a week ago due to premature labor at 23wks into my pregnancy. We are in a difficult place with our grief & it helps to know we are not alone, although I hate that anyone else has ever felt the depths of such grief.
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