Jenna Belle's Balloons

Today is three months from her birthday. Lots of tears and frustrations. No, I did not get her birth or death certificate. BUT, we are one day closer to getting it. Thanks be to God. We found someone at the main office in Austin who is a saint. She is going above and beyond to make sure we get these documents. Thank you, Vanessa!

Aside from this, the highlight of my day was visiting her. The shady trees make her gravesite such a pleasant place to be. We put these giant soft pink gerber daisies in a vase and bought her ten bright balloons. On each month, we release balloons. But before releasing them, we write things on them with a sharpie. Who knows- maybe God just reaches into our world and pulls them into Heaven for her to play with? I like to think so. Thank God for the good weather so far on these days.

Birthday Wishes

Birthday Wishes



The day that should have marked her birth

And the day that we should have welcomed her home

Is nothing more than a whisper right now

That echoes today you're alone.



Instead of holding her gently

And giving her my first kiss

Instead of smelling her sweet baby scent

Today its those things that I miss



By looking at me one would never know

That I worked hard to carry a baby into this world

That today I should have given birth

That two months ago I buried my baby girl



But I know that this world cannot compare

To the welcome the angels gave

When Heaven opened its white pearly gates

As my sweet precious Jenna flew

To a home without tears, suffering and pain.



But as I feel that her candles burned out too soon

And her birthday wishes never came true

I know that her cake topped with sweet vanilla cream

Is much better in Heaven in the presence of the King.